Thank you Muaz :)

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh!

Rasenye da dekat setahun tak write dekat blog. Sebabnye adelah, Muaz secare tak sengajanye terlupekan password gmail i. So takleyh la nak write dekat blog. Bukan salah Muaz pun. Salah i. Asyik mintak tolong and harapkan Muaz. Hihi.

So, did u guys miss me? Sobs Sobs. I miss you too. 

Oke. Mari ceritakan ke-disaster-an hidupku pade minggu ini yang mmg telah sedia disaster bermulanya sem 1 year 3 ni. Bile dekat dekat nak final ni. U know je lah. Lots of stuffs nak kene submit, nak kene present, nak kene finalize. Boleh tak laptop i yang rupawan tu leyh hardisk rosak???!  And you know it bile hardissk rosak jadi ape. Mmg hancur luluh hatiku. Hancur. Lebur. Rase nak pengsan. Terjun bangunan.

Then, this week. Muaz datang Kuantan. Pinjamkan laptop die and i pun dengan gigihnye, pasrahnye, tabahnye, buat keje dengan tekunnye. Sampai cakap dekat Muaz. "Abang datang jauh2, adik nak dating jalan jalan borak borak dengan  abang. Taknak study da. Da la tu. Jom la dating" and Muaz said " Takboleh lah adik. Kene siapkan keje keje ni. Dah nak dekat final. Nanti nanti boleh dating" Mase ni. Memang perasaan die sangat la tak best. Tapi ape boleh buat. Harddisk rosak. Semua file hilang. Memang fail la semue subject kalau tak buat balik.

Sedih. Pasrah. Kecewe.

Berlalunye 2 hari Muaz dekat Kuantan begitu sahaja buat keje keje duniawi sebelah die and barely talking pun dengan die. Tupun mase buat balik keje die banyak tolong. Bagi semangat. Jangan give up. Bagi idea. Suruh sabar. Uuu baiknye Muaz. 

Hari ni. Anniversary kitorang. Dah 1tahun 2bulan kitorang fall in love w each other. And da 1tahun 2bulan tu jugak la Muaz bersabar with everything, tolong i mase susah, nasihat i bile give up, teman study malam2 walau jauh (tapi limit 11.30. Muaz tido awal. Heh heh heh), kejut subuh hari hari (tengok sape bangun dulu die kejut), doakan mase kuiz, tenangkan i bile markah exam tak best sangat. Dah 1tahun 2bulan and he still doing all these things (except bagi surat cinte #hint: abang adik nak surat cinta. hihi)

Dearest Muaz,

Thank you for always being closest to me even when we were in separate time zones and separate stages of life.

Thank you for not letting us get split by dumb facts like distance or time.

Thank you for never giving up on our relationship, for never shrugging and being like “Eh, things change, people change” and drifting away vaguely because we’re victims of circumstance.

Thank you for taking care of me in every way possible, for being there when no one else was or wanted to be and when you didn’t even have to be.

Thank you for being a different boyfriend than everyone else, different from the boyfriends who are only there for the fun things.

Thank you for always being fun even when we’re not having fun. I don’t know how else to explain that.

Thank you for believing in me when I was too weak and exhausted to believe in myself.

Thank you for not judging me when I did something really stupid, but also thanks for telling me I was an idiot and probably shouldn’t have done the stupid thing. Thank you for always being honest.

Thank you for doing all the things a real boyfriend does. For letting me sob into your shoulder when I need to and handing me the flask when there aren’t any more words.

Thank you for always knowing who I am and reminding me of that when I forget.

Thank you for being genuinely concerned with the outcome of my life and always listening, even when you’re tired.

Thank you for loving and I love you too sweetheart.

Thank you Thank you Thank you.

Love, 

Fatinkmz.